Lent

I don't normally give up anything for Lent. Occasionally I'll give up SOMETHING, just to go a long with the rest of the family, but usually it's something pretty painless or not very meaningful.

This year.....I am giving up something. I am giving up obsessing or searching for information related to my situation and affairs in general. I get some emails from various places....newsletters, tips, support, etc. I won't delete them, but I'll save them to read some other time. I also have been still pretty hot-and-heavy on my cyber-sleuthing. It's a compulsion....and actually pretty fruitful. I frequently check to see if she or her husband have filed for divorce. No evidence of that, but I did find out that this moron has had THREE traffic violations in the last year. THREE. I have had ONE ticket in my whole driving career and I, quite honestly, am not all that great a driver. She's had about a dozen in as many years. Just more evidence that she's an idiot......but what good does it do me to know that? Yes, I get some satisfaction knowing that she's "in trouble". But really all it does is keep all this fresh in my mind.....and thinking of one thing obsessively leads to thinking of other things obsessively....and next thing I know that's all I can think about. So I've given all that up, at least through Lent. And maybe forever. I spend way too much time on someone who is just not worth it.